lastleaveoffall

tell me stranger if two people have the same character, can they deal well each other?

for me the answer is no. that's why two people who have totally different characters fall in love with each other or addicted each other. parents and their children have always an argue each other because they are the same.

me and my parents can't deal sometimes because we have the same personality. so i'm a hybrid :) the mix of my both mum and dad. we all have rules, we all have strong decisions and we don't want them to be broken. so sometimes this can be very hard. don't get me wrong. in our house glasses or plates don't fly in the air or something else :)... i always try to get deal with them. try to soothe them and as long as i can, try to say "yes" to them because i can see our similarities . unfortunately i can't do these things always. i cant always say "yes" to them. my character doesnt allow it.

sometimes they realize that they really hurt me and they try to say that they are sorry. i say nothing to them. it is all in my head. i put everything inside of me. i say nothing. they break me, say things and then apologise from me. i say nothing to them. only from inside, i ask them why? you have already shot me down,crushed my heart, i am lying on the groud as a dead person, why are you still trying to turn me back to life again. why do you still want to resurrect me like that? i'm broken now,i'm crying and have nothing for living why do you want me to live like that? why?.......

and of course i cant cry in front of them. they try to hush me or ask the reason. i cant tell them that  "you are the reason of my tears". i always say to myself, don't cry like the song of the guns'nroses. i say to myself be strong love, don't cry while you're with them. they are your parents don't get angry to them, don't shout at them. the thing is in your heart is just a crack. it will heal in time. don't cry. be strong. dont cry just be strong my love. you have edgar. don't expect them to understand for once. don't expect sympathy from them or anyone-else. 

no one will dry your tears, the unseen tears. no one will love you like you love them. no one will understand you the way you want. you will always be with edgar. only with edgar. only edgar will soothe you. your loneliness edgar will be with you. dont tell lies to yourself  love, face with the truths , just see clear love and dont cry tonight.........